I haven't written in a long time just because I just didn't want to. There isn't much to say really. Our goal lately has been to find a house that we can afford and try to save money. Summer is here it's fucking hot and miserable. Work is cutting our pay for three months which sucks and the economy is still going strong as far as the housing market.

Not much to say.

Interesting

I really am working on showing my husband how much I cherish him.

Today I became friends with my creative writing teacher Mr. Res*g on Faceb**k. It's so much fun getting back in touch with people you ordinarily wouldn't. He was such an inspiration to me my senior year in high school I made sure to tell him that. He's a cool hippy type who is writing for an environmental newspaper in Michigan.

My husband has been playing some music which I surprisingly like.

I love my cats as if they were my children and I CHERISH them.

My mother in law sent me this ring that he is so insitatn on giving me. I wonder why? Weird.

Today it's spring the sun is shining but it's cold.

I am glad not to be at work today.

I feel good.

I picked up some of my Sumatra coffee from Wh*le F**ds yesterday and I am happy.

I have a ton of cleaning to do and instead I am writing this...and I don't care.

I have to plan something for my husband's birthday which is in May. He likes to camp and be outdoors so I was thinking of renting a cabin INSTEAD of sleeping in a tent. I am getting too old for it.

I feel very relaxed today.

I woke up and watched J*el Ost**n this morning. He has great messages.

We were supposed to go and look at a house but I decided not to. I want to see what happens since it's a bit more than I wanted to pay for it. I can't wait until we have our home. I want to PLANT some flowers. I already have landscaping ideas drawn out in my head.
That's all for now.

Exciting news

A friend of mine is starting up a non profit and has asked me to be a part of it. I don't have details but it would involve being able to go to Barbados and work with "under the austic umbrella" kids. I am pretty excited about it. He met with the Prime Minister of Barbados last week so the ball is rolling.

I'm tired.

Ahhh...it's the weekend

I haven't had much to say since I have been nursing a cold, sinus thing. Today is Saturday, another day of washing clothes etc. I don't have much to say other than I am thinking about where/when I can plan a little time off. My vacation time has been adding up and frankly I haven't had a week off since September when my father came for a visit. Last weekend there was a lot of driving to NJ to see my mother in law. My husband decided to give her his old car (he wanted to restore it but never did) because she needed a car. It was a lot of driving since we both had to drive there (a 5 hour drive) and then back the next day. My MIL is "smokey" therefore I didn't sleep well and suffered for several days after. I despise the smell of cig smoke and cannot tolerate it anymore. I do think I am highly allergic to it. I know she wanted us to stay there for a longer time since she doesn't get to see him as much as she'd like. I am sure I take the blame for this. She thinks that I needed to get back to work (while is was Robert who wanted to get back to HIS work). I always tell him to go there and visit. My MIL is a nice woman but if you were there you would understand. The woman talks non stop and if you aren't listening she'll shove her elbow into your arm and laugh. Truth be told I am not much of a talker when I am in those situations I'd rather just sit back and let her do most of the talking. I like peace and quiet :) There's much more to say about the trip but I won't bore you with the details.

I have been taking a retreat from reading blogs, etc. I feel that it's consuming me too often and I need a break. I want a break thinking about my own self pity shit and other folks shit too. I know it sounds harsh but I feel liek it's putting me into a downward spiral. The only blog that I can truly read is a blog of a real life friend who I do worry about and will often "check in" to see how she is.

I just need a retreat :)

Have a great weekend.

I had a centered day

I have to do a "video trainer bio" segment for work so I installed a webcam at my desk. I decided to turn on the motion detection to see if it worked. It did. What I found was the cleaning lady sitting and spinning in my chair chit chatting on her cell phone. Not that I really give a shit but it's still funny to see what's going on when I am not there. Below is some of the video footage. I decided to do another Stephen Speilb*rg tonight.


Well shit at least she's cleaning my desk (actually I wipe down my desk..I want to tell her to clean my coworkers FUCKING SHIT pile of a desk.

I also had an interesting visit with my Dr. This afternoon I was off to my endocrinologist. I have been gaining some weight even though I have been exercising. Muscle...NO! Fat. I was sitting in the waiting room and the fire drill went off in the building. The receptionist called down to the security desk and didn't tell anyone to leave. I was ordered to go into the Drs. examining room and there we had a discussion about the IVF and my thyroid levels being high. My RE took my levels and wasn't too alarmed with my results but I was. My TSH was rather high. While he was examining me someone knocked on the door told him that we need to leave the building but my Dr. is like go ahead and decides instead of making me come back for bloodwork he quickly drew my blood. Smart or not. I will say dedicated.

Whiel I was waiting for the bus back to the office I had an interesting conversation with a man. He was also waiting for the bus and began to talk about the construction that was going on across the street and then he told me he was 84. This man looked better than a lot of 50 year olds. I asked him waht his secret was and he said he only eats fish, chicken, turkey doesn't drink, doesn't smoke, take vitamins. If you were to see this guy YOU would be amazed...I sure was. I really couldn't believe. Our conversation was interrupted when my bus came and as I turned back he disapperred. Strange.

I only half 1/2 a soda today and other than that, NO SUGAR. I feel good.

Oh and that Angel*na person is in DC filming a movie. Someone said that they spoke with her and she was really nice.

From That to This

WOW...money and makeup do wonders for people. I like the older photo because it shows the simplicity and eagerness in their eyes. I am happy the O is our President but I am also happy that the "hype" is over with.